Blackballed

So, who is not in my "select group"?? Well, that would be anyone on my side of the family who doesn't bother to read my blog anyways. They (mainly my mother and sister) were in a big tizzy when I set up my old blog. It was like I told them I was on crack or something. It was true drama ~ why???

Originally, I thought the blog was a great way for everyone to keep up with us and the girls ~ see their cute pics and hear the anecdotes. That's what people do in the 21st century, right? Keep up with people via the Internet.

I read blogs of girls my age whose parents and other immediate family members comment on their blog and keep up with faithfully. I thought maybe mine would react similarly. Big mistake!

I first told my sister that I decided to set up a blog. I tell her and it's SILENCE. LONG PAUSE (lol. that is how many minutes of each and every conversation is with her anyways...). Then I get the pensive, "well, what made you decide to do that?" So, I tell her why. Change of subject. Then about 15 minutes later she calls back and says, "can I say something without you getting mad?" Well, great, go ahead... She went onto inform me that when I post on my blog to be sure and not mention her kids or post pics of her kids! For crying out loud, they live on the East Coast and I NEVER see them, much less have pics, but sure....I also went onto inform her that I would never post a pic of a child without the parents permission blah blah blah.

I haven't told you the IRONY of all of this. My sister and her husband set up a website when she was pregnant with her first son so family could keep up with the baby. Macy's pic was posted without my knowledge or permission (like I care). She's a hypocrite but don't send me emails asking why I didn't call her out on it. It's just not worth it. BTW, if you want to see her family be sure to check out: http://www.2monkeys.info/
(Don't tell her I sent you!) Ha!

So, then I talk to my mom who is completely computer illiterate. I told her about my blog and SILENCE. LONG PAUSE. Then I get the pensive, "yes, Susan told me about it." I told her that Susan was all bent out of shape which was hypocritical of what she does. And my mom who never forms any opinion of her own says that Susan was just worried for my safety...I've never heard of a 31 yr old momma sitting in her jammies with greasy hair and zit medicine on getting kidnapped or raped etc b/c someone found her blog and tracked her down.

So...as usual, I asked myself and my girlfriends why I bothered to even tell them. Of course they turned a positive into a negative. I even pondered whether this was a "sign" and I should just not do a blog anyways. But I did but kept it vague. Like the post early on about Macy praying and about how I never went to church as a kid etc. Well, that was indirectly directed at my sister whose children have never set foot in a church. And in June, when we went on vacation, I was at her house for a week...No post to recap that! That was a miserable trip. And all the illusions to the jacked up way I was raised...The comments were out there, but you had to read between the lines to "get them".

I also wondered if I should change the blog name and not tell them. No, I kept it. But it is changed now. If and when they should ask about it, I tell them that yes I am still blogging but it is private. But it'll take my mom a long while to have enough interest to even ask. Today she called while I was on the other line and I saw her on caller ID. So, I called her back and she said, "oh, I thought you were on the computer". Like people today can't talk on the phone and be on the Internet at the same time...

My mother, my sister and I all have long standing issues if you can't tell. Bottom line ~ they bring me down, burst my bubbles and stick pins in my balloons. They are blackballed.

But you have blessed me by your faithfulness, your kind and encouraging words the past six months with my downtime blog. I so appreciate that and feel validated.